Hindsight

Softly
fingers brush
against hesitation
bottled tight
beneath buzzing skin.

Holding your gaze
slowly
too enured to defeat
to read
the deep water.

Vulnerability
too promising
for my expectations
lurks
in your smile.

Times Change

The vision crack'd
from side to side;
shattered reflections
held by nothing
but old habits.

The sell-by date
has long gone by.

Reprieve

Holidays float
on memory's tether
untouched
by present quandaries.

Gone in a flash,
they are timeless.

Disintegration

Solid-seeming ground
crumbles beneath
surprised feet,
eyes revision a continent into
a floating island

drifting

ever faster
into quiet endings.

Meteorites

Crossing cold space

The galaxy -
stars and planets
clustered closely,
or so it seems.

They hurtle through distance
as we do through time;
ever distant.

Ever alone.

Flung by forces
we cannot control,
we are meteorites
passing by.

Askew

Seeing is not being

realisation
cannot dispel
the vanity of sunny visions

contrast sharply etched

in morose musings
hovering over

that

which cannot be forced.

Meanings

I read to much
into random phrases
garbled through
transmission.

Voices change
as I turn the button,
white noise stalks
the radio chatter.

What you say
and what I hear
merge into
divergence.

Limits

Dabble
in my shallows
as much as you dare,
I already know
you will not venture
into the deep.

Stay in the warmth
of sunlit calm
I do not begrudge
you safety -
and build a reef
around my truths.

All The Right Places

A thourough search
breeds constant chaos.

I carry on searching
conspicuously ignoring
the box that holds
just what I want
or what I fear the most.

I carry on searching
in all the wrong places.

Vagaries

This
cannot shake
practiced apathy.

Somewhere, far away,
I am raging.
But not here.

Playing Along

Impossible
to make the first move
where I want to the most
as you turn
a blind eye
into the past.

Calcifying
in the wake
of this indifference
I shrug into
my pokerface
and play the joker.

Drawing The Line

Do I see tears in your eyes as you realise
that I am not going along
with your awesome idea?

You trampled around
in my emotions -
invaded my space with empty promises -
planted false hopes.

You had me jump through hoops
when you already knew
ephemerity.

Who spoilt you so much
that you did not expect consequences?

My Plan A in tatters
I shut the door on your Plan B.

To Fade Away

Retreat
reflected
in the smooth face
filling the mirror.

Do not pity a gambler's heart

Porous pillars crumpled
leaving empty ruins
in marble
irises.

Idiot

You don't even know me
and decide
that you'll
turn away from me.

Clinging to six years
of knowing her -
the one who
said no.

First, I was sick with
disappointment,
now I'm nauseous
with anger.

Fuck you for dragging me
into this,
for making me
a side story.

You'd like that, wouldn't you,
but I'm the hero
of this story
and I'm leaving you behind.